Blast from the Past

 This week I had the strange feeling of being back in time. 

Maybe it's because I'm back in Minnesota again and things are starting to remind me of all the years I lived here before. 

Maybe it's because my favorite boy band from when I was a teenager, Big Time Rush, announced they are reunited and recording new music. 

Maybe it's because after my call with Jeremy I had fluttery crush feelings for the first time in years.

After our phone call, I immediately texted one of my friends in all caps. She called me about thirty minutes later to find out why I was so excited. I giggled to her like a high school girl with her first date to a school dance. Previously I have complained to her about how poorly conversations with men have gone or how I was considering no longer dating men at all because they never seemed that interesting or worth keeping around. It was a surprise to feel the opposite for once.

I don't know if this fluttery crush feeling will last long. In fact, I expect it will fade within the next few weeks (or potentially after I meet Jeremy for coffee tomorrow). However, it is nice to know I can still have those butterfly feelings just as strongly at 27 as I did at 17.

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