Coffee Dates and False Starts

 Last Saturday I was more nervous for my coffee date with Jeremy than I had ever been for any date. As I drove to the coffee shop I kept telling myself "It's just coffee, you'll be fine, you're a catch, and it'll be fine."

It turns out I had no reason to be so anxious. Why?

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Because Jeremy never showed up. 

I didn't hear from him until Tuesday, when he messaged me over Hinge to say his app was not loading and he couldn't remember which coffee shop we were meeting at (never mind that he had other ways to contact me due to our phone call that week). I told him he should report that technical issue to the app so it wouldn't happen again, and that ended our conversation. 

A few friends told me I should Venmo him for the cost of my coffee and time. Another friend said to just block him on Hinge and move on. Both made me laugh, but ultimately I'm just letting go of that conversation. I'm not really upset about it, just annoyed about the wasted time. There are a lot of other people out there I could have spent that time on: in the last week, I've had three other people ask me to meet up (one of who messaged to ask me out while I was waiting at the coffee shop!).

Of the three, I've agreed to meet with one of the matches. Riley* and I have been chatting on and off for a few weeks now, and this week we have been messaging steadily. She and I have a lot of things in common: we're both cat moms, love Broadway, enjoy bad puns, and generally have had really enjoyable conversations. We're meeting for coffee later today.

One of the things I prefer about dating women is I always feel more collected before dates. I'm more confident with women, and I am significantly more comfortable around them. That feeling of comfort is what I am actually looking for with a partner (although some of the warm and fuzzy butterfly feelings should also develop), and so already this date feels like it's more on the right track. 


*All names used on this blog are pseudonyms.

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